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I wish you knew..

2009-10-02T08:46:00.000-07:00

This post says it all......

NOBODY KNOWS
By: The Tony Rich Project

I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought
You'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I'll be lovin' you still

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hitting the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely...

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

p/s: i miss you a lot

For the few who knew....and request c nad8 (cos she likes dark-sad stuff :p).

2009-06-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

I found a nice song, sweet betrayal by Hollow, while was surfing the net [kes boring kali ah~]. I liked it because ia acoustic kali. Little did know that I am easily affected by music. Music defines my mood, emo songs makes me emo, energetic songs feels me with energy...catulah kirakan. Enjoy :) and jangan sedih sal mendangar lagu ani...wawawawawa

Hollow - Sweet Betrayal (acoustic)

when i was broken
you picked up the pieces
and made me whole again

when i was wasted
you gave me life somehow
and took away the pain

(Cho)

Now the precious moments are all
tarnished by your lies
nothing you could say to me
would ever justify
stranded out at sea so full of
grief and misery
surrounded by the waters of your
heartless treachery

(v2)

your tears mean nothing
you empty words of blasphemy
and you deserve to pay
and now its over
the love i had for you has died
there is nothing left to say

(Cho)

(Solo)

(Outro cho)

now the precious moments are all
tarnished by your lies
i see the broken pieces of my
life go passing by
stranded out at sea so full of
grief and misery
surrounded by the waters of your
heartless treachery

p/s: tiada kene mengene dgn yg hidup atau pun yg mati.... ('',)v

How should I know?

2009-06-24T16:28:00.000-07:00

hmmm...

I am recieving different vibes..

God, help me....

What should I do...?

For I am weak...

Point me to the right direction....

Please....

Here I beg you....

Please....

watching your back

2009-06-22T17:28:00.000-07:00

Something to share. :)

-#-

You were walking by my side
That brightens up my day
Then, u walk in front of me
It makes me wonder
And wonder if
IT is real, or
Just a mere imagination.
Again, I only walk
Behind you
And only see your back
Tried to catch up, but
Feels like I’ve been left,
Left far behind
And cannot reach you
I’m locked out,
And can’t get in,
That makes me wonder
A lot more..
Can’t really think,
Can’t really sleep,
Can’t really eat,
Can’t really do anything...,
Maybe, what im feeling
Is just a feeling of
‘’Insecurity’’
Always thinking that
“im not good enough”
“what am I missing?”
I hear a whisper calling your name
Probably its my heart,
Calling for you..
Craves for your attention..
I can’t do anything else,
Only, wait and hope,
Hope that you will sense my presence
And wait for that time to come
It may take years
But, I hope that I can take the pain,
Pain of being un-noticed..

-composed by peko-

p/s: how I wish you knew

Early Air to Air combat

2009-05-24T01:22:00.000-07:00

Stumbled upon a nice piece of article telling the birth of fighter planes, the technologies incorporated and the brave stories of the fighter pilots. Enjoy people!

(clip taken from BBC website: http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/h2g2/A898761 )

Early Air-to-Air combat

The first aeroplanes were not built for war. The Wright brothers made their first powered flight late in 1903, but by 1909 the technology had advanced sufficiently for the Frenchman Louis Blériot to fly some 22 miles across the English Channel. This won him the £1000 promised by the London Daily Mail for doing so. He nearly didn't make it.

History

The British Army had already conquered the air, however. From 1880 they were using balloons to locate and target enemy troops for artillery, as the Prussians had done in the siege of Paris in 1871. This service was delivered by the Balloon Section, Royal Engineers (RE).

In 1911 the Air Battalion, RE, had two Companies. No 1 had airships, balloons and kites, while No 2 had aircraft. The Royal Flying Corps (RFC) was founded in 1912 from these two Companies. Just before the outbreak of war the Royal Naval Air Service (RNAS) took over the airships, leaving the RFC with the aircraft. The RNAS also formed aircraft squadrons in September 1914.

The Technology

The aircraft of 1914 were not intended as fighters. The job for some, unlike their balloon predecessors, was to 'scout' for the enemy, a job traditionally given in the past to the cavalry. Aircraft were not limited by difficulties of terrain, and had a superior vantage point. At this stage they complemented the role of the cavalry. Most British single-seater aeroplanes were called scouts for most of the First World War. Once the target was located, two-seater aircraft maintained the contact, with the passenger or observer passing firing correction instructions back to the artillery, superseding but not replacing the balloon. They were ideal for a campaign of manoeuvre.

The problem with most of these aircraft was that they were under-powered and under-developed, which meant that they had problems lifting any sort of weight or payload - including the pilot! Their rate of climb was lamentable, and their loiter time (the length of time an aircraft can stay in an operational area once airborne) limited. The two-seaters in particular were designed for stability, to allow ground observation. The standard RFC aircraft in 1914, the BE 2, was so stable that it could not be manoeuvred quickly at all, and later proved to be the airborne equivalent of a 'sitting duck'.

At the outbreak of the First World War, strengths were as follows:

France had 132 front-line aircraft and 15 non-rigid airships
Germany had 246 aircraft and five Zeppelin airships
The RFC had 84 aircraft
The RNAS had 71 aircraft and seven airships

The other major forces - Russia and Austria - were poorly equipped at this time.

The Russians had some 24 aircraft and 12 airships
The Austrians had 36 aircraft and one airship

In the first few weeks of World War I there was still no desire to fight in the air. Opponents waved chivalrously at each other in passing. Just being airborne was dangerous enough - but it would soon become more so.

The Shooting Starts

It may have started with a shaking of fists, but soon opposing airmen started to devise ways of limiting the enemy's activities. Due to weight restrictions only pistols, rifles and shotguns were used initially, with little effect, although there were stories about airmen (RJF Barton of the RFC and Felix Brocord of the French Air Service) shooting down German aircraft with pistols. Other offensive projectiles at this time included bricks, flechettes (heavy steel darts), hand grenades, and grappling hooks.

Since there was no way of preventing your machine gun or any other weapon from shooting your propeller off, tractor aircraft (propeller in front) could fire only to the side and behind. Pusher aircraft (propeller behind) could fire forward, but not to the rear. Early machine guns were too heavy to be carried in the smaller aircraft, so it was left to the large, lumbering, pusher planes to carry the heavy machine guns.

On 22 August, 1914, Lt Louis A Strange and his observer, Lt L Penn-Gaskell, with an infantry type Lewis gun mounted in a Henri Farman pusher, chased a German reconnaissance aircraft but could not come within range. The order was given for the gun to be removed.
On the same day, German rifle fire brought down an Avro 504 on patrol over Belgium, which made it the first RFC aeroplane to be destroyed by the enemy.
As if in reply, a German two-seater aircraft was forced down on 25 August after a confrontation with three unarmed aircraft of No 2 Squadron RFC. This was the first German casualty.
On the Eastern Front in August 1914, Staff-Captain Pyotr Nesterov of the Imperial Russian Air Service was the first military pilot in the world to ram a hostile reconnaissance plane.

A Deadlier Game

On 5 October, 1914, the first aeroplane in the world to be shot down from another aeroplane was a German two-seater Aviatik, piloted by Feldwebel Wilhelm Schlichting, with Lieutnant Fritz von Zangen as his observer.

It was brought down over Rheims, France. Sergeant Joseph Frantz (pilot) and Caporal Louis Quénault (observer) of the French Air Service were returning from a mission in a Voisin Type 3 (pusher), when they spotted and fired on the German aircraft. Quénault's Hotchkiss machine gun fired about 48 rounds (two clips) before the gun jammed. At this point von Zangen, the German observer, fired at them with his rifle. Quénault returned fire with his carbine, hitting the pilot. The plane, out of control, crashed to the earth and was destroyed.

This was witnessed by French troops on the ground, and thus became the first confirmed air-to-air combat victory.

Crew Conditions

Before continuing, it is as well to describe the crew conditions and equipment. By the end of 1914 most two-seaters carried a machine gun for rearward defence. The Allies usually carried a Lewis gun, and the Germans a Parabellum (a lighter redesign of the Maxim).

The normal safety harness was a simple leather lap strap, which the observer had to undo if he was to man the machine gun. There are many tales of aircraft rolling over and the observer being seen to fall to his death from the rear cockpit (or front, in the case of the BE 2).

There were no parachutes issued to aircrew: they were reserved for the crews of the observation balloons, which began to be used as the front became more static. Many aircrew refused them as they were seen to be 'unmanly', but it was mainly the weight of the early parachutes that prevented their widespread use.

To shoot at an aircraft would almost certainly result in the death of the crew from gunfire or crashing. The chivalry wasn't exactly dead, but it certainly became difficult to see. By the spring of 1915 the air war had grown more deadly.

The scout aircraft were the most vulnerable as, with only one crew member, the pilot not only had to fly the aircraft, he had to fire the weaponry as well. Since this could not be fired forward, it had to be fired around the propeller arc. Difficult? That may be, but there were those who did achieve notable success.

On the 25 July, 1915, Major Lanoe G Hawker of 6 Squadron RFC was flying a Bristol Scout C biplane, armed only with a bolt-action rifle. This was a Short Magazine Lee Enfield (SMLE), the standard infantry rifle, mounted beside the cockpit at an angle to fire clear of the propeller arc. He attacked three enemy two-seater scouts in three separate actions during a single sortie. For this action he was awarded the Victoria Cross (the highest and most prestigious British award for bravery in battle) on 24 August.

For most conspicuous bravery and very great ability on 25 July 1915. When flying alone he attacked three enemy aeroplanes in succession. The first managed eventually to escape, the second was driven to the ground damaged, and the third, which he attacked at the height of about 10,000 feet, was driven to earth in our lines, the pilot and observer being killed. The personal bravery shown by this officer was of the very highest order, as the enemy's aircraft were armed with machine guns and all carried a passenger as well as a pilot.
- London Gazette, 24 August, 1915.

Technology Advances

The first forward-firing machine gun in a tractor aircraft was fitted to a Moraine Saulnier Scout of the French Air Service, flown by Roland Garros. To avoid the obvious problem with bullets and propeller blades he had steel wedges fitted, which deflected the bullets. This gave him a tremendous advantage over the opposition, who had thought they would be safe if a scout came directly at them.

After shooting down five enemy aircraft, he was forced down due to damage caused by ground fire. The Germans captured him and found the technology on his aircraft. The secret was out.

Anthony Fokker, an enterprising Hollander who built aircraft for the German Air service (the Netherlands were neutral), inspected it, but decided he could do better. He used cams, in line with the propeller blades, on the crankshaft of the engine. These operated a linkage with the machine gun's firing mechanism and stopped it firing as the blade passed in front of the barrel. This is termed 'interrupter gear'.

To avoid weight problems, he used a lightweight version of the Maxim MG07, the MG07/15, which had an air-cooled (not water-cooled) barrel. This became the standard German fighter gun of the First World War. He built this into a nimble monoplane, the E1 (E for Eindecker, monoplane) and offered it to the German Army. It was eagerly adopted.

At first it was used as protection for spotters, but in the hands of pilots such as Ernst Boelcke and Max Immelmann¹, who patrolled the skies looking for spotters to shoot down, it was a killer.

So began the 'Fokker Scourge' of the Autumn of 1915, when Allied aircraft dropped from the sky with monotonous regularity. The BE 2, with the defensive armament in the front, firing backwards under the top wing, was, as mentioned earlier, an easy target – 'Fokker Fodder', as it became known. The Fokker E1 can be considered the first fighter aircraft.

The End of the Beginning

After using agile pusher aircraft such as the Airco DH2 with forward-firing guns, the Allies used another version of interrupter gear like that used by Fokker, and almost universally used the air-cooled version of the British Army's Vickers machine gun. As engines grew more powerful and aerodynamics more refined, heavier armament could be carried, usually two MGs with more ammunition.

Aircraft also became more agile, presenting a more difficult target. So began the 'dog fight' - aircraft turning, rolling, looping and stalling to shake off an attacker, and the attacking aircraft following these manoeuvres to gain a good shooting position. Thus also began the long run of the fighter aircraft and 'Aces' – fighter pilots who shot down others. Most did not survive the war, and many that did laid the foundations for a repeat performance in more modern machines from the Spanish Civil War to the Pacific Ocean (1936 to 1945).

¹ The Immelmann turn, a half loop followed by a half roll, was not Immelmann's tactic. He preferred a steep climb with a flat 'rudder' turn of 180°. Some think it was an Allied manoeuvre to avoid Immelmann!

2009-05-18T15:15:00.000-07:00

LUFBRU SUMMER GAMES 2009

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Assalamualaikum and hello fellow students!!

We are pleased to announce that the Loughborough Students' Union Brunei Society (LufBru) will be organising its third LufBru Summer Games in Brunei again this year!!

One of the highly anticipated games amongst Bruneian Students currently studying in the UK, the LufBru Summer Games aims to foster close relationships between students as well as to develop the spirit of sportsmanship.

Details of the Summer Games are as follow:

Date : 14th, 15th & 16th August 2009

Venue : To be confirmed

Sports to be contested are NETBALL, FOOTBALL, BADMINTON & MEN'S BASKETBALL

The LSG website will be up and running soon. Just keep on checking our website. The registration will commence on the following week, i.e. 25th May 2009.

Any updates will be posted up on the following websites:
LufBru website : http://www.lufbra.net/society/brunei/
LSG 09 link: http://www.lufbra.net/society/brunei/lsg09/

Slots are limited and teams are enlisted on first come, first serve basis. Winners will be given cash prizes along with trophies/medals!

So what are you waiting for? Get your team and yourselves ready and wait for the registration to open =D

If you have any questions, please e-mail us at lufbru@gmail.com

A clip from Brudirect..

2009-05-15T01:48:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum and Hello Readers. There's something that i'd like to share with you lot regarding an Old woman back home.. For those of you in Brunei, I've take a piece from Brudirect itslef.

http://www.brudirect.com/DailyInfo/News/hyspickoftheday/May09/14/hys01.htm

Please Help This Old Woman In Kg Junjungan
By Buah Tampoi

Our daily lives are becoming more hectic. So we sometimes forget about others around us. I am writing out of sadness and pity towards this helpless old woman. She was once married, but she had no children. Her husband passed away, so nobody is there for her. She lives by way of her old pension which is actually not enough.

There are occasional relatives coming over to see her. But not so often – she told us. On Monday, we saw her walking alone and then we took her and send her to her house. We called her ‘Nene’. Her house is on the left side of the junction, not far from the main road. When I saw her house, ‘Oh Allah’ I felt so sad, even the chicken coupe is better than this one, I thought.

The house has no wall – and the dining area is also the living room. I was shocked to see such an old woman being abandoned just like that, without no one caring for her. If you guys don’t believe it, you can drive up and see two wooden houses next to a white bungalow, just on the left before a junction to Lumapas.

She told us she needs assistance to fix her sorry house. But the Ketua Kampong told her she is holding a red IC (Permanent Resident) so it is quite impossible. He even told her that it is hard to help her because nobody knows where she came from! Subhanallah is that a good reason for not helping the poor old woman?!

But think about it, how can she get a pension if she’s not recognized legally? Then, of course she deserves help, even though whoever in such a state – it is our obligation to help.

The Nene told us that once she went to the hospital. When she came back, someone has been to her house and put water into her rice and sugar. How cruel can a human be!

So please to the relevant authority, do help this poor woman.

I hope what I have written will be taken notice of and someone will do whatever is needed!

Sejarah Ayat Kursi

2009-05-11T10:55:00.000-07:00

I've received the same email a few times already and thought that I'd share it with y'all.. ^_^

SEJARAH AYAT KURSI

Ayat ini diturunkan setelah hijrah. Semasa penurunannya ia
telah diiringi oleh beribu-ribu malaikat kerana kehebatan dan
kemuliaannya. Syaitan dan iblis juga menjadi gempar kerana adanya satu
perintang dalam perjuangan mereka. Rasullah s. a. w. dengan segera
memerintahkan Zaid bt sabit menulis serta menyebarkannya.

Sesiapa yang membaca ayat Kursi dengan khusyuk setiap kali
selepas sembahyang fardhu, setiap pagi dan petang, setiap kali keluar
masuk rumah atau hendak musafir, InsyaAllah akan terpeliharalah dirinya
dari godaan syaitan, kejahatan manusia, binatang buas yang akan
memudaratkan dirinya bahkan keluarga, anak-anak, harta bendanya juga
akan terpelihara dengan izin Allah s. w. t.

Mengikut keterangan dari kitab"Asraarul Mufidah" sesiapa mengamalkan membacanya setiap hari sebanyak 18 kali maka akan dibukakan dadanya dengan berbagai hikmah, dimurahkan rezekinya, dinaikkan darjatnya dan diberikannya pengaruh sehingga semua orang akan menghormatinya serta terpelihara ia dari segala bencana dengan izin Allah. Syeikh Abu Abbas ada menerangkan, siapa yang membacanya sebanyak 50 kali lalu ditiupkannya pada air hujan kemudian diminumnya, InsyaAllah Allah akan mencerdaskan akal fikirannya serta Fadhilat Ayat Al-Kursi mengikut Hadis-Hadis Rasullullah
s. a. w. bersabda bermaksud:

"Sesiapa pulang ke rumahnya serta membaca ayat Kursi, Allah
hilangkan segala kefakiran di depan matanya."

Sabda baginda lagi;

"Umatku yang membaca ayat Kursi 12 kali pada pagi Jumaat,
kemudian berwuduk dan sembahyang sunat dua rakaat, Allah memeliharanya
daripada kejahatan syaitan dan kejahatan pembesar."

Orang yang selalu membaca ayat Kursi dicintai dan dipelihara
Allah sebagaimana DIA memelihara Nabi Muhammad. Mereka yang beramal
dengan bacaan ayat Kursi akan mendapat pertolongan serta perlindungan
Allah daripada gangguan serta hasutan syaitan. Pengamal ayat Kursi juga,
dengan izin Allah, akan terhindar daripada pencerobohan pencuri. Ayat
Kursi menjadi benteng yang kuat menyekat pencuri daripada memasuki
rumah. Mengamalkan bacaan ayat Kursi juga akan memberikan keselamatan
ketika dalam perjalanannya. Ayat Kursi yang dibaca dengan penuh khusyuk,
Insya-Allah, boleh menyebabkan syaitan dan jin terbakar. Jika anda
berpindah ke rumah baru maka pada malam pertama anda menduduki rumah itu eloklah anda membaca ayat Kursi 100 kali, insya-Allah mudah-mudahan anda sekeluarga terhindar daripada gangguan lahir dan batin. Barang siapa
membaca ayat Al-Kursi apabila berbaring di tempat tidurnya, Allah
mewakilkan 2 orang Malaikat memeliharanya hingga subuh.

Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir setiap sembahyang
Fardhu, ia akan berada dalam lindungan Allah hingga sembahyang yang
lain. Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir tiap sembahyang, tidak
menegah akan dia daripada masuk syurga kecuali maut, dan barang siapa
membacanya ketika hendak tidur, Allah memelihara akan dia ke atas
rumahnya, rumah jirannya & ahli rumah2 di sekitarnya. Barang siapa
membaca ayat Al-Kursi diakhir tiap-tiap sembahyang Fardhu, Allah
menganugerahkan dia hati-hati orang yang bersyukur perbuatan2 orang yang
benar, pahala nabi2 juga Allah melimpahkan padanya rahmat. Barang siapa
membaca ayat Al-Kursi sebelum keluar rumahnya, maka Allah mengutuskan
70,000 Malaikat kepadanya, mereka semua memohon keampunan dan mendoakan baginya. Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir sembahyang Allah azza wajalla akan mengendalikan pengambilan rohnya dan ia adalah seperti orang yang berperang bersama nabi Allah sehingga mati syahid. Barang siapa yang membaca ayat al-Kursi ketika dalam kesempitan nescaya Allah berkenan memberi pertolongan kepadanya Dari Abdullah bin 'Amr r. a. , Rasullullah s. a. w. bersabda,

" SAMPAIKANLAH PESANKU BIARPUN SATU AYAT...."

Happy Mothers Day!!

2009-05-09T18:24:00.000-07:00

For bringing me into this world,
I will love you forever unconditionally,
for being there for me no matter how silly I've been,
I will love you forever unconditionally,
for wiping my tears and encouraging me in life,
I will love you forever unconditionally..

Happy mother's day mummy, I love you... ♥

As said by Vivi.. I'm not good with words but it has the same meaning.. :p

What should I do??

2009-05-07T18:53:00.000-07:00

AAAAAaaaarghhhh~

Its 2:53 am in the morning, Friday 8th of May. I have been trying my hardest for the past 53 mins to sleep but to no avail!! weird much?

Anyway, I'm to blame since I slept early jua. Oh well. Now, what should I do? hahaha So, I have decided!! Menalur..No, Report writing...yeaaaah..

Hahahaha shoite.. becerita jua ku tu sorang2.. wawawawawa bah2 I'm off to do my section for our group design project report...which will be 160 pages thick!!! whoaa right.. So, yeah..report it is..while waiting for Naruto and Bleach weekly updates and of course royal mail!!

*where on earth are you royal mailman*
*mana barang kuuu*

sigh~

peace aut!!

Procastination

2009-05-03T11:17:00.000-07:00

Procastination is a very very baaaad thing.. lol here I am. Anyways, some random youtube clips that I, pekoh, find it cool/amazing/lawa/rugged/wassap dan yang sewaktu dengannya.. huhu..

First up is Love story (Taylor Swift) meets Viva La Vida (Coldplay):

Send is titled "Modern Samurai" seriously..SERIOUSLY!! He's a f**k*n' Samurai man!!
Don't believe me? Check it aut:~

People..do you guys think sheeps are cool? Check the following video before answering...

See more funny videos and funny pictures at CollegeHumor.

So...are they cool or not? ^_^

Another cool vid...signs...

Signs
Uploaded by Xeryoxys

cool no?

Thats all for now I guess.. Will update my blog if I have the chance to do so.. Only a month to my project due date!!!! :s

Peace Out!
pekos

look into my eyes.

2009-05-03T09:05:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum and Hello to all~

I stumbled upon this very beautiful song by outlandish. Just wanna share it with ya'll.

Outlandish - Look into my eyes.
 
 Look into my eyes
Tell me what you see
You don't see a damn thing
'cause you can't relate to me
You're blinded by our differences
My life makes no sense to you
I'm the persecuted one
You're the red, white and blue

Each day you wake in tranquility
No fears to cross your eyes
Each day I wake in gratitude
Thanking God He let me rise
You worry about your education
And the bills you have to pay
I worry about my vulnerable life
And if I'll survive another day
Your biggest fear is getting a ticket
As you cruise your Cadillac
My fear is that the tank that has just left
Will turn around and come back

Do you know the truth of where your money goes?
Do you let your media deceive your mind?
Is this a truth nobody, nobody, nobody knows?
Someone tell me...

Ooohh, let's not cry tonight
I promise you one day it's through
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters
Ooohh, shine a light for every soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters

See I've known terror for quite some time
57 years so cruel
Terror breathes the air I breathe
It's the checkpoint on my way to school
Terror is the robbery of my land
And the torture of my mother
The imprisonment of my innocent father
The bullet in my baby brother
The bulldozers and the tanks
The gases and the guns
The bombs that fall outside my door
All due to your funds
You blame me for defending myself
Against the ways of my enemies
I'm terrorized in my own land
But am I the Terrorist

Do you know the truth of where your money goes?
Do you let your media deceive your mind?
Is this a truth nobody, nobody, nobody knows?
Someone tell me...

Ooohh, let's not cry tonight, I promise you one day it's through
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,
Ooohh, shine a light for every soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,

America, do you realize that the taxes that you pay
Feed the forces that traumatize my every living day
So if I won't be here tomorrow
It's written in my fate
May the future bring a brighter day
The end of our wait

(pause)

Ooohh, let's not cry tonight, I promise you one day it's through
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,
Ooohh, shine a light for every soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers, Ohh my sisters,

Ohh let's not cry tonight I promise you one day is through
Ohh my brothers! Ohh my sisters!
Ooh shine a light for every Soul that ain't with us no more
Ohh my brothers! Ohh my sisters! 


Peace Out~
pekos

Raining tears.

2009-04-30T20:13:00.000-07:00

Yes, finally I'm blogging after quite sometime. Ive been pretty occupied with two projects, 1 - Final Year Project and 2 - Group Design Project. Anyways..today has been pretty weird compared to my normal days.

I don't know whats wrong with yesterday (thurs). I started the day off waking up at 9am. Facebooked, checked my email, drink coffee and had some puffs. Fyi, that's my typical morning routine. Then I did some GDP stuff for my meeting later that day. I was surprised to find out that I was productive! Jarang lah kirakan. My meeting was okay. Had a few laughs here and there and minor changes on the report for GDP.

Later that night, Yas and Hzq came around to check up on me. [i know they miss me esp Hzq] so sweet of you guys.. *dush* Thanks for coming anyway! After they left, I called R up just to catch up on things. As usual we had our small talks, and I started off telling her about the goodthings and the not-so-good stuff that happened that day. Then, our conversation slowly drifts to families and lost-loved ones. Im not gonna talk about the details here. Later that night, the same thing happened. So, I ended up reminiscing about the past, families and those people who we hold dear that passed away, be it recent or long gone. [Al-Fatihah]

As to describe my mood up till this moment, while I'm blogging, can be found here and the song is Hey ya, an acoustic cover performed by Matt Weddle.

The song might or might not fit my mood but, this song starts off sad..towards the end it starts to get catchy.. it gives the impression of someone crying his heart out without actually crying. That's just how the song speaks to me. Anyways, its 5am where I am right now and I think I'm gonna sleep soon.

p/s: Wherever you guys are, just want to let you know.. we love you

Peko panda

Revampication part 2??

2009-04-10T12:08:00.000-07:00

Right.. the last template was...nice...so to speak. I loved it. But as we all know... shit happens.. hence another blog template.. I pick this template personally with some added modifications..[thanks to kasum, again] To be honest, I'm no good with html stuff.. How hard can it be? antah nyamu.. prolly its not that hard...but considering my brain is filled with theories of flight..I dont have the leisure time to learn html.. (kusut jua ku tuu..all I wanted is a good looking template which is easy to maintain..) So far, okay lah.. Some annoying stuff like the "undefined, undefined and more undefined shits laying around in my blog somewhere..

Because I love you - Hinata

2009-02-27T09:46:00.000-08:00

Yes, it it because i love you that im blogging.. you know who you are *wink* esehmennnnnn~ For those of you who do not know who the above beauty is, she's Hyuuga Hinata, a character from the famous anime Naruto [if you still dont know what naruto is, try wiki-ing or googling it]. The latest manga release, from Onemanga, chapter 437 is titled "confession". Thats right people, confession. confession apa lagi nah? huhu from the pic above you'll know straight away what its about. Wanna know more? read the manga lah~ haha I wouldn't want to spoil it for others. well, its a bit late now..lol.. In other words.. Hinata confesses her feelings towards naruto! deep wah yo..deep! lol okay, im exagerating a bit saja..

Till my next update,
-pek0 of the hyuuga clan..huhu
(^_^)V

Paperthin hymm.... Are you battle ready???

2009-02-19T23:30:00.000-08:00

As mentioned in my previous post, I have just become a fan of Anberlin.^_^. In my POV, its similar to The Used, but less screaming ( i think ) lol. There's this song that I particularly like also introduced by Umie. Its titled "Paperthin Hymm" and the music video is shown below. Enjoy~

When your only friends are hotel rooms
Hands are distant lullabies
If I could turn around I would tonight

These roads never seemed so long
Since your paper heart stopped beating leaving me suddenly alone
Will daybreak ever come?

Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands

I thought you said forever
(Over and over)
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion

These thoughts run through my head
(Over and over)
Complaints of violins become my only friends

August evenings
Bring solemn warnings
To remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight

You never know what temporal days may bring
Laugh, love, live free and sing
When life is in discord
Praise ye the Lord

Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands

I thought you said forever
(Over and over)
This sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion

These thoughts run through my head
(Over and over)
Complaints of violins become my only friends

I thought you said forever
(Over and over)
The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion

These thoughts run through my head
(Over and over)
Complaints of violins become my only friends

I thought you said forever
(Over and over)

These thoughts run through my head

And just to update, MDP 2k9 is TOMORROW!!!

Are you READY?

Are you BATTLE READY??

IKEZO BRUM SUPREMACY, ULTIMATUM!!! CRUSH the LufBru's hahahahahahaha :p

-pek0

Anberlin in the morning

2009-02-18T03:48:00.000-08:00

Yes, I wake up to paperthin hymm by anberlin! I just found out about Anberlin yesterday from a friend, Umie, and downloaded 430Mbs worth of Anbelin discography woohooo!

-New Anberlin Fan
pek0

Re-Vampification

2009-02-18T02:18:00.000-08:00

Right, my blog has been revamped!! thanks to YarzO!! and thanks also for bringing in the mocha tadi! lap u! So, yes, if you lot check the tabs above, there are all linked to its respective elements. cool no? :)

They are all linked to my flicker account, facebook page, youtube videos and our badminton blog! So, peeps, check it out! videos of Fahmi Yusri pair vs Afnan and Ayus pair has been added. Nyahahahaha

Something I want to share with you all. :)

2009-02-18T00:17:00.000-08:00

Why do we read Quran, even if we can't understand a single Arabic word? This is a beautiful story.

An old American Muslim lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern Kentucky with his young grandson. Each morning Grandpa was up early sitting at the kitchen table reading his Quran. His grandson wanted to be just like him and tried to imitate him in every way he could.

One day the grandson asked, 'Grandpa! I try to read the Quran just like you but I don't understand it, and what I do understand I forget as soon as I close the book. What good does reading the Qur'an do?'

The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in the stove and replied,'Take this coal basket down to the river and bring me back a basket of water.'

The boy did as he was told, but all the water leaked out before he got back to the house. The grandfather laughed and said, 'You'll have to move a little faster next time,' and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again. This time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned home. Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was impossible to carry water in a basket, and he went to get a bucket instead.

The old man said, 'I don't want a bucket of water; I want a basket of water. You're just not trying hard enough,' and he went out the door to watch the boy try again.

At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would leak out before he got back to the house. The boy again dipped the basket into river and ran hard, but when he reached his grandfather the basket was again empty. Out of breath, he said, 'See Grandpa, it's useless!'

'So you think it is useless?' The old man said, 'Look at the basket.'

The boy looked at the basket and for the first time realized that the basket was different. It had been transformed from a dirty old coal basket and was now clean, inside and out.

'Son,that's what happens when you read the Qur'an. You might not understand or remember everything, but when you read it, you will be changed,inside and out. That is the work of Allah in our lives.'

Second semester

2009-02-09T18:50:00.000-08:00

As the title mentions, second semester of my fourth and final year in Loughborough Uni has officially started yesterday, Monday 10th Feb. As an Aeronautical-engineer-in-the-making... the norm of my scheduled timetable are mostly hectic ever since 1st year. This year, this time its totally different..

My day starts with me, meeting up with Yas and Famme at Costa's for our morning cup of coffee. I had hot choc though as the coffees at costas aren't as good as Starbuck's (sorry, thats from my POV anyway) So yeah, not a bad start for second semester right?? haha Then, I went to Notts arah awang Famme, ngasak drumahnya. The place I would normally go to inorder to get a new..what do you call it...perspective/fresh air/take a break/membawa diri.. Its either Famme's crib or Beloved Pershore Rd, Birmingham...haha So yeah, Uni starts yesterday and now im bloggig @ 3 am in the morning, at Famme's crib, Nottingham and tommorow, chill saja kali..hahaha I Do Not Have Anymore Classes In 2nd Semester!!! wohahahahaha except for the weekly group meetings which only takes place every thursday 2-5pm slot..huhu not bad ey? Indeed!! what more can i ask?

Itenerary for today, Setarbucking!!! and jalan2 and chill2 and make the most of it..Its 3/37 now and to those people yang alum tidur and stalking me ( you know who you are..) tidur tah.. =P and to Miss pj's.. u too go to sleep!! :p glad to hear news from you all across the world..eseh, cam jauh bunyinya..

p/s: we're still under the same sky..

Saturday Morning...

2009-01-31T01:17:00.000-08:00

Tell it to my heart~tell me i'm the one~

I wake up to the song from Taylor Dane - Tell it to my heart. It was the hit back in the '80s!! The clock shows 20 past 9 in the morning. Saturday morning to be exact. What am I doing up at this hour? beats me, I aint got a clue myself. I would normally wake up dalam kul 11 or 12 lah catu. The three muuskeyteers slept over at my place and they conquered my awesome-ly comfortable double-sized bed!!! T_T haha

The three muuskeyteers mentioned are: (i) Nawget, (ii) Feelah-i-dung and (iii) Decaff.
Two of them are awake now while the other goes back to hibernation. Behapa kah ya lastnight when I was asleep. *looks at decaff*. Right, thats my two cents for this morning.

-pekoh

p/s:havent heard anything from you for a while,imu

Exams

2009-01-23T23:11:00.001-08:00

Wassssssapp! - Birm Style hahaha

Exams.. I used to love those words, not anymore. As a finalists, I have 3 exams this semester for the modules: Advanced Reliability, Flight dynamics and control and Aerospace Structures. Had Reliability exam on Monday 19th Jan. FDC this coming Monday and Structures on Wed, 28th. Hope all goes well for me! Amin!

Hati yang important. XD

2009-01-17T17:27:00.000-08:00

Tak guna adanya hati kalau tak tahu menilai. Nilailah hati itu dengan teliti kerana segalanya bermula dengan niat yang bertempat di hati.

Something to share

2009-01-14T10:35:00.000-08:00

Aku Tinggalkan Cintaku Kerana Allah
www.iLuvislam.com
oleh : hidayahislamic

Salam untuk semua. Saya terkejut kerana cerita saya, walaupun tergantung, mendapat sambutan yang saya tidak sangka. Oleh kerana pada hari itu saya tergesa-gesa dalam menulisnya lantaran kelas yang menghambat, maka saya ambil keputusan untuk menulisnya kembali dari mula. Saya harap para pembaca yang sudi melihat tidak bosan dengan cerita saya.

Wahai teman-teman sekalian, Kisah ini datang dari lubuk hati saya sendiri, apa yang saya rasa dan apa yang saya alami sendiri. Saya tidak bermaksud untuk mengeluh apatah lagi mengingkari apa yang telah Allah s.w.t tetapkan kepada saya dan kita semua orang yang beriman dengan-Nya. Kisah ini saya khabarkan agar apa yang saya lalui tidak berlalu begitu saja tanpa saya kongsi dan tanpa saya rekodkan sebagai panduan bagi diri saya sendiri untuk hari-hari kemudian. Saya sama seperti orang lain, punya keinginan untuk menyayangi dan disayangi. Walau bagaimanapun, tidak mudah bagi saya untuk jatuh hati pada seorang wanita.

Saya tidak mencari seorang wanita untuk dijadikan kekasih, tetapi saya mencari seorang teman pendamping hidup saya hingga ke akhir hayat saya. Seorang yang boleh mengingatkan saya kiranya saya terlupa, dan yang paling penting wanita yang amat saya percayai untuk mendidik anak-anak saya kelak dan generasi yang akan lahir daripada keluarga kami nanti. Untuk itu, sejak di bangku sekolah lagi saya telah letakkan beberapa syarat bagi seorang wanita untuk hadir dalam hidup saya, dan dialah orangnya.

Dalam masa beberapa bulan saya belajar di sebuah pusat pengajian tinggi di Petaling Jaya, banyak perkara yang telah saya pelajari. Yang paling penting buat saya ialah, bagaimana saya mula mengenali wanita-wanita dalam hidup saya kerana saya sejak dari sekolah rendah belum pernah bergaul secara langsung dengan seorang wanita pun dan saya amat peka terhadap larangan pergaulan antara lelaki dan wanita kerana saya bersekolah di sebuah sekolah menengah agama lelaki berasrama penuh. Lantaran itu, saya tidak pernah punya hati untuk memberi cinta atau menerima cinta walaupun peluang itu hadir beberapa kali.

Saya mula mengenali si dia apabila kami sama-sama terpilih untuk mengendalikan sebuah organisasi penting di tempat kami belajar. Ditakdirkan Allah s.w.t, dia menjadi pembantu saya. Dari situlah perkenalan kami bermula. Dia seperti yang telah saya ceritakan, bertudung labuh dan sentiasa mengambil berat tentang auratnya terutama stokin kaki dan tangannya. Itulah perkara pertama yang membuatkan saya tertarik padanya. Dia amat berhati-hati dalam mengatur butir bicaranya, bersopan-santun dalam mengatur langkahnya, wajah yang sentiasa berseri dengan iman dan senyuman, dan tidak pernah ke mana-mana tanpa berteman. Suaranya amat sukar kedengaran dalam mesyuarat kerana dia hanya bersuara ketika suaranya diperlukan dan tidak sebelum itu. Saya melihat dia sebagai seorang mukminah solehah yang amat menjaga peribadinya dan maruah dirinya.

Saya tidak pernah bercakap-cakap dengannya kecuali dia punya teman di sisi dan atas urusan rasmi tanpa dipanjangkan-panjangkan. Saya seorang yang amat kuat bersembang dan sentiasa punya modal untuk berbual-bual seperti kata teman saya, tetapi dengan dia saya menjadi amat pemalu dan amat menjaga. Bagi saya, itulah wajah sebenar seorang wanita solehah.

Dia mampu mengingatkan orang lain dengan hanya menjadi dirinya, tanpa perlu berkata-kata walau sepatah.

Pada hari terakhir saya di sana, saya punya tugas terakhir yang perlu saya selesaikan sebelum saya melepaskan posisi saya dan semua itu melibatkan dia. Sebaik sahaja semua kerja yang terbengkalai itu siap, saya mengambil peluang untuk berbual-bual dengan dia. Saya bertanya perihal keluarga dan apa yang dia rasa bertugas di samping saya untuk waktu yang amat sekejap itu. Alhamdulillah dia memberikan respon yang baik dan dari situlah saya mula mengenali dengan lebih dalam siapa sebenarnya pembantu saya ini. Namun, apa yang memang boleh saya nampak dengan jelas, dia amat pemalu dan dia amat kekok semasa bercakap dengan saya. Selepas itu barulah saya tahu, sayalah lelaki pertama yang pernah berbual-bual dengan dia bukan atas urusan rasmi sebegitu. Di situlah saya mula menyimpan perasaan, tapi tidak pernah saya zahirkan sehinggalah saya berada jauh beribu batu daripadanya.

Semasa saya berada di Jordan, saya menghubunginya kembali dan menyatakan hasrat saya secara halus agar dia tidak terkejut. Alhamdulillah, dia menerima dengan baik dan hubungan kami berjalan lancar selama empat bulan sebelum saya balik bercuti ke Malaysia. Kadang-kadang saya terlalai dalam menjaga hubungan kami dan dialah yang mengingatkan. Dialah yang meminta agar kami mengehadkan mesej-mesej kami agar tidak terlalu kerap. Semua itu menguatkan hubungan kami dan bagi saya dialah teman hidup yang sempurna buat saya. Walau bagaimanapun, sewaktu saya pulang ke Malaysia bulan lepas, ummi dapat menghidu perhubungan kami. Saya tahu ummi tidak berapa suka anak-anaknya bercinta tetapi saya tidak pernah menjangka ummi akan menghalangnya. Tetapi perhitungan saya silap, amat silap.

Buat pertama kali, adik perempuan saya memberitahu ummi sudah tahu perihal saya dan ummi tidak suka. Saya tidak pernah menganggapnya sesuatu yang serius sehinggalah ummi bercakap secara peribadi dengan saya pada satu hari. Saya masih ingat lagi kata-kata ummi yang buat saya tak mampu membalas walau sepatah.

"I haven't found any entry in Islam that permit what you are doing right now. I haven't heard from anyone that love before marriage is permitted. But I know there's no relationship between male and female except for what is very important and official between them. So, may I know what kind of relationship you are having now and I want to hear it from your mouth that it is legal in what you have been learning until now. Not a single phrase, nor a word. My sweetheart, if you want to build a family, a faithful one, you can never build it on what Allah has stated as wrong and proven false by the way Rasulullah p.b.u.h has taught us. A happy and blessed family come from Allah, and you don't even have anything to defend it as blessed if the first step you make is by stepping into what He has prohibited. You can't have a happy family if Allah doesn't help you so, and you must know in every family that stands until their dying day, they have Allah on their side. You can't expect Him to help you if you did the wrong step from the very beginning."

Saya tiada kata untuk membalas kerana semuanya benar. Saya tahu kebenaran itu sudah lama dulu, tetapi saya tak mampu untuk melawan kehendak nafsu saya sendiri. Saya akui, saya tertipu dengan apa yang dipanggil fitrah, dan apa yang dipanggil sebagai keperluan manusia. Cinta tak pernah membawa kita ke mana, andai cinta itu bukan dalam lingkungan yang Allah redha. Tiada cinta yang Allah benarkan kecuali selepas tali perkahwinan mengikatnya. Itulah apa yang telah saya pelajari lama dahulu dan dari semua kitab Fiqh yang saya baca, tiada satu pun yang menghalalkannya. Saya tahu kebenaran ini sudah lama dahulu, tetapi saya tidak kuat untuk menegakkannya. Saya tidak mampu untuk menundukkan kemahuan hati saya. Dan kata-kata ummi memberikan saya kekuatan untuk bangkit kembali dari kesilapan saya selama ini.

Ummi berkata:

It's not me who want you to make a decision like this, but Allah tells you so.

Saya percaya, itulah yang terbaik buat saya dan dia. Dengan kekuatan itulah saya terangkan kepadanya, dan alhamdulillah dia faham. Amat faham. Walaupun air matanya seakan air sungai yang tidak berhenti mengalir, tetapi dia tahu itulah yang terbaik buat kami. Dia meminta maaf kepada ummi kerana menjalinkan hubungan yang tidak sah dengan saya, tetapi ummi memberi isyarat, janganlah bimbang. Andai ada jodoh kamu berdua, insya-Allah, Dia akan temukan kamu dalam keadaan yang jauh lebih baik dari sekarang. Hidup saya sekarang lebih tenang kerana tiada apa yang menggusarkan hati saya lagi. Hidup saya lebih suci dan saya boleh bercakap kembali tentang agama saya dengan lebih bebas tanpa dihantui oleh perasaan berdosa.

Bagi saya, dan dia, inilah saat untuk kami muhasabah kembali diri kami dan kami betulkan kembali segala kesilapan yang telah kami buat. Inilah saat untuk kami kejar kembali cita-cita kami dan sediakan diri untuk menjadi seorang ibu dan ayah yang berakhlak mulia dan berperibadi tinggi. Inilah masanya kami insafi kembali keterlanjuran kami dahulu dan memohon moga-moga Allah sudi maafkan kami. Sesungguhnya Ya Allah, aku insan yang sangat lemah. Aku tidak mampu melawan godaan syaitan yang tidak pernah jemu, juga hambatan nafsu yang tidak pernah lesu. Ampunkanlah aku. Walau bagaimanapun, perpisahan ini hanya untuk sementara. Saya telah berjanji dengan diri saya sendiri, dialah yang akan jadi teman hidup saya nanti.

Sesungguhnya pencarian saya untuk seorang calon isteri telah berakhir. Insan seperti dia hanya satu dalam seribu. Mana mungkin saya melepaskan apa yang amat berharga yang pernah hadir dalam hidup saya. Insya-Allah, sekiranya Allah s.w.t panjangkan umur, sebaik sahaja saya tamatkan pengajian saya di sini, saya akan kembali ke Malaysia dan melamarnya untuk menjadi permaisuri di hati saya. Insya-Allah, saya akan setia menunggu saat itu, dan saya akan berusaha sedaya-upaya saya untuk mengekalkan kesetiaan saya.

Sekiranya kita telah bertemu dengan seorang insan yang amat mulia sebagai teman dalam hidup kita, janganlah lepaskannya kerana kita tidak tahu bilakah pula kita akan bertemu dengan insan yang seumpamanya.r1; Siapakah lagi dalam dunia ini yang menjaga adab berjalan antara lelaki dan perempuan sebagaimana yang ditunjukkan oleh Nabi Musa a.s dan puteri Nabi Syuaib a.s beribu-ribu tahun dahulu?

~Mafraq, Jordan.~

p/s: Saya tidak tahu sama ada anda pernah membacanya atau tidak. Kepada yang telah membacanya saya mohon maaf jika mengulangi kembali article ini. Saya hanya berkongsi article sahaja. kisah benar ini di petik dr www.ukhuwah.com. selamat membaca..:)

2009-01-14T10:18:00.000-08:00

Those That Run.

1. By the (steeds) that run, with panting (breath),

2. Striking sparks of fire (by their hooves),

3. And scouring to the raid at dawn

4. And raise the dust in clouds the while,

5. Penetrating forthwith as one into the midst (of the foe);

6. Verily! Man (disbeliever) is ungrateful to his Lord;

7. And to that fact he bears witness (by his deeds);

8. And verily, he is violent in the love of wealth.

9. Knows he not that when the contents of the graves are brought out and poured forth (all mankind is resurrected).

10. And that which is in the breasts (of men) shall be made known.

11. Verily, that Day (i.e. the Day of Resurrection) their Lord will be Well-Acquainted with them (as to their deeds), (and will reward them for their deeds).

Whats life?

2008-12-14T08:04:00.000-08:00

I forgot what is the purpose of this blog..my blog..for it has been dormant for quite some time now. No updates, No news, No whatsoever. It even looks like its 'dead' lol. Anyways, here i am now blogging, filling it up with hopefully happy post or some wise post. Haha.

Today is another weird day in a minor chapter of my life. I had a thought, deep thought rather, of "Why can't I be like that?" Have you guys been in the exact same situation before? A friend of mine was playing the guitar. He's new at playing it but he learns quite fast. So, I thought...why cant I be like him? I actually have loads of questions which I have no answer to. Do any of you ever wonder what your qualities are? What qualities make you stand out of the rest? Be it being good in sports, good in entertaining or good in education. I'm no good in sports, I can say that I'm rather average nor am I good in entertaining or make jokes. Education wise as at the moment, it's only so-so. Hence the question "Why can't I be like the rest?" "what qualities do I have that others don't?" "what would make the others say 'why can't I be like him'?" Just from reading this post, you can deduce that I'm a negative thinker. I always think of "what if's" than "what can" and the list goes on.

As I mentioned earlier..its just one of those random thoughts stirring up in this head of mine..

-pek0

Badminton

2008-10-20T07:33:00.000-07:00

Free badminton later from 5:30 till 9:00pm at walbeck (i think walbeck...) hahahah okay..atu random...but yeah... 2 more hours~

Whaaaaaaaat~ I've doooneeeeeeeeee~

2008-09-09T22:49:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum and hello to all.

I know that I have not update my blog for a verrrrryyyyyy looooooooooooooonggggg timeeee..... Well, to be honest, i dont know why. Kan ku cakap nada time, I've got loads of free time. No resources / nothing to write?? I've got stories to tell, pictures to post and etc etc.

Anyway, no use blabbering the nonsense. haha. I'd like to start by Congratulating my older brother, Along, on his graduation on the 3rd of September 2008, attaining a Second Class-Upper in MEng Chemical Engineering (MEng = Masters in Engineering) from one of the top Universities in UK, University College London (UCL). Congrats long!!! Im prod of you. ^_^

So, What have I been doing lately? Lets start from June, after my exams. On the 20th untill 28th of June 2008, Along, Myself, Yasam, and Baby Pol went to....*wait for it..* NEW YORK!!!!! yes, you read it right. New York, USA baby. I would say that its like a dream come true. I would have never imagined to go to NY in ten years!! well, probably after saving loads of $$$$$$$ from work perhaps. I will have a separate post for NY (Insya-Allah) and pictures will be included =). To cut it short, the trip was fun, exciting all the wayy!!! hehehehehee..

Back from New York means back to UK a.k.a back to loughborough. While back in the borough, I had to clear out my room and move to another room as I will be living with Azizul in the new academic-and-insyallah-final year 08-09. After the move-out, I went to London and went sightseeing again with Yasam and Baby Pol. Despite being 3 years in UK, there are still loads of places that needs to be uncovered and visited. So, jalan2 tah kami ke hulu, ke hilir, kesana, kemari, kesitu and kesini untill bisdia balik ke Brunei. We went to Camden st, Prison Museum, Market (sumwhere near knightsbridge??) and this old hospital (also nearby the market) which used to be a hospital and is now a museum showing the surgical methods from the 70's and 80's. Scary! trust me, you'd feel lucky not to be born during those pre-anesthetic period. :s

Then, I'm back in the borough once again. By then, it was already half way through July and Rahman's and Ejay's Graduation falls on 14th of July. Congratulations to both of them for finally getting their Honours Degree in Mechanical Engineering and I'm sure they are now job-hunting. Goodluck to you both! :) A few days later, its Saifullah's turn and again, I attended his graduation ceremony in Birmingham. Hahaha sanggup, but oh well, he's a great friend anyway.
P/s: during both graduation, I was their "official" photographer.

Okay, once both graduation ended, its back to normal, i.e in the borough. My June exam results are out. Sadly, my average mark wasn't enough for me to proceed to MEng. I need an average of 55% but I only manage to get 50.9%! *sigh* its only 4.1% more nyamu!! The thing is, I kinda expected that to happen. Stuff happened during my third year in Uni and to summarise it all, I wasn't in my best of conditions. To be honest, I predicted even worse. hahaha. I had to fill in the "SAP" (Special Assessment Period) form and I retook 5 modules: Management, Avionics, Composites, Flight Contol System and Mechanical Vibrations. And so, I ended up managing my notes for the rest of July.

August starts with a blast when Me and Saiful Hazmi went to the British Motorshow on its last exhibition day, 3rd of August 2008. Well, thats the 2nd time that we went there. The 1st time was sometime in July with, Rahman, Along and (whats his name). Rahman and I went to London because Rahman had to "report" to BSU etc and we departed loughborough at 12am-ish and back at around 1am-ish. A one-whole-day journey. Ngalih yaw! hahahaha salah sapa nah mem-book National Express ticket during those times?? hahahahaa The fist time we all went to the motorshow, we only took pictures of the displayed car. Nothing more, nothing less. Then the second time I went there (with sai haz) the first thing yg kami aga was the "Drift Experience Club". Yes, we went DRIFTING baby!! It costs us £17.50 per person. (£10 for the actual drifting and £7.50 for our in-car drift experience!) It was well worth it. ^_^

The rest of the August was spent rather lazily. No commitments whatsoever untill my SAP resit timetable came out. Barutah kan betungkus lumus start belajar. Hahahahahaa shit. Basically, I started my SAP revisions one solid week before exams.My exams were on:

28/8----Management
29/8----Composites
1/9------Avionics
4/9------FCS
5/9------Mech Vibrations

Management was okay-ish. Its the first paper I sat and actually finished it in 27 minutes!! thats my own personal record. :):) Composites was a bit hard :s mudahan saja dapat the required mark. Amin. Puasa Falls on the 1st of September in UK, the very same day as my FCS exams. To be honest, I didn't know what to expect on that day. I thought that I would not make my fast to dusk and that I had to break my fast early. I even considered not to fast for that day. It was that bad, but, Alhamdulillah I made it :):):)

Along's graduation as mentioned above was on the 3rd of Sept and my the rest of my family came to London all the way from Brunei on the 31st of August. I did not pick them up. Maklumlah ada exam the next day. I went down to London on the 2nd, stayed there for a night, and then back to loughborough the very next day (3rd sept) after Along's graduation ceremony. I felt bad leaving my family right after his graduation ceremony and after taking some pics, but, what can I do? FCS exam is n the very next day. Begagas tah ke bh, take my stuffs and head to St Pancras Intl to go to Loughborough. Sampat jua saya beli Starbuck's grande white caffe mocha *yumm* for sungkai/iftar dalam train!! hahaha.

I was well knackered upon arrival in the borough, nasib jua Uncle Pg Sofhrin mau menulung to pick me up from the train station and send me home. That night was something. My initial plan was to pull an all nighter but, it dint happen as I ended up sleeping till 6 am. No sahur and No revision done since I got back to loughborough. That was one of my worst ever exam situations. With only 8hr to my FCS exams, I did all I could but, I know for sure that my results wont be as good as I had hoped. Then that night I pulled an all nighter, this time its for real :). My Mech Vibrations exams went okay. Alhamdulillah. As a result, I played badminton with Fahmi, Azwan and Khalid from 5-7pm ( just before sungkai yo!!! hahahahaha)

Well, I'm at my limit now. I will update this post some other time.

----the13thpeko----

updates??

2008-07-10T16:23:00.001-07:00

hello ppl...updates will be up SOON...wawawawaaaa

Time for a drastic change??

2008-05-14T12:02:00.001-07:00

Hey peeps!! wasap berasap people??

Anyways, exams are underway..and I still have courseworks due. They are:

i) Finite Elements Methods
ii) Flight Control Systems,
iii) Mechanical Vibrations,
iv) Business strategy,
v) Business strategy presentation, and
vi) Aircraft Design

Life as a third year ( not finalist though ) shucks!!!! I'm only a fortnight away from my bloody exams, which starts on the 2nd of June and 6 fucking courseworks still??? Aero Eng sucks!!! and I'm one of the "lucky" ones doing and suffering from Aeronautical Engineering. Y_Y

As the title says...Its time for a drastic change. Truth be told, I've been busy and slacking at the same time. How am I busy and slacking at the same time?? Well, if you do Aero Eng, you'd probably know what I'm talking about. It is fucking tiring..studying the almost impossible..hahahahahaha

The plan is to finish all courseworks by this weekend. If not all, most of it jaditah. Man, these courseworks been dragging my ass and not to mention its delaying my exams revision. Y_Y
peko oh peko... you gotta step up your game man!! I need a miracle :) Anyways I might not be updating my blog for some time now due to exams nor logging on to facebook. I have to go back to the nerdy peko, the one with the huge glasses, and study my ass off. ^_^

Anyways, I'd like to say goodluck to you guys that are having exams and may Allah bless us always. Ya Allah, tolong lah hamba2 Mu yang dalam kesusahan. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Yours,
Peko

parallel worlds-elliot minor

2008-04-20T14:42:00.000-07:00

The minds playing up, again,
and someone's there,
The room is getting colder now,
The light swings again, and I'm scared,
cos someones there,
Stop messing with my mind, cos now I'm..

Trapped in your world where you're burning in my eyes,
You're like a shadow that never hides...
I'm stuck in parallel worlds, something supernatural,
It wont let me go,
Its paranormal, and no one else believes me,
I feel so alone again.

Go, go, It wont let me
Go, go, It wont let me

I'm stuck against the wall,
I cant make a move,
My heartbeat stops,
and I'm scared of this time cos i cant make a line,
Say once again it just proves to be difficult,
I'm feeling nervous but its nothing that i cannot do,
I'm stuck in a dimension where its hard to breath, and its still true,
I'm loosing my mind, I'm falling,
Someone help me what can i do..

Trapped in your world where you're burning in my eyes,
You're like a shadow that never hides...
Im stuck in parallel worlds, something supernatural,
It wont let me go,
Its paranormal, and no one else believes me,
I feel so alone again.

Trapped in your world where you're burning in my eyes,
You're like a shadow that never hides...
Im stuck in parallel worlds, something supernatural,
It wont let me go,
Its paranormal, and no one else believes me,
I feel so alone again.

Living on the edge..

2008-04-18T02:12:00.000-07:00

zzzzZZZZZZ...krOOOOOOOOh~

*beeeep*
*bunyi message alert tone..*

" pukul brapa ko kan balik? "

it was Muizz...asking me what time kan balik ke loughborough. It was Monday morning and I am still in the land of my founding parents..apakan...lol yeah, Im still in Birm... Moday's timetable is PACKED... lectures from 9am till 6pm but..im still in BIRMINGHAM.

Why was I Brum?? On Saturday the 12th, there's a BIB BBQ gathering and the only outsiders are me and Muizz. XD (Brum is a nice place with nice ppl..). Okay, im not gonna talk abt the gathering.. you can read it yourself at their website---> http://bru-mingham.blogspot.com/

Where was i?? oh yeah.. It was Monday the 14th, the day Uni re-opens and my coursework deadline was yesterday, 17th..and we pretty much haven not done anything...and i mean anything... we were screwed big time!! Had a group meeting at 5pm onwards...sampai kul 01:00am in the morning.. hardcore yo!!! 7hrs in the computer lab in our department. On Tuesday, again, i skipped my whole class wah..dint even masuk once..hahaha and workd on our coursework dari kul 10:30 ish till....00:00 am...thats more than 12 hours in the same place..with breaks in between though.

Wednesday, the day before due day, the same thing happend. coursework all the wayy, pagi till malam... Okay, that night was a bit special. The people who were there, in SM113 pc lab was me, Sarv (cwk partner), Andy, Mark, Kalz, Natalya, Liz and Andrea. They were all doing the same coursework which was Aircraft Design. Its literally aircraft design where we design our own aircraft. We were the only ppl left in the building...Aeronautical Engineers wanna be a.k.a those crazy enough to take this course. lol. Me and Mark ordered takeaway pizza from mama jane's ( its halal =) )
Oh yeah, Anthony Fan came as well. He was doing his final year project tho and he has an awesome car. Honda Integra type-R, 2.0ltr vtec engine, two-door, with bucket-type seats man. I was having a smoke break from work with him when i realised he had a sick car. Then, we talked abt it in the pc lab and Andy and Sarv was around.

bla bla blaaa....

Anthony: wanna give it a try??

Andy: yeah, why not?

Me and Sarv: let's do it..

(kes stressed out...ngalih..)

Bunyi engine best yoo... and the aceleration...you can feel the G-force man..

behind..hahahhahaAll four of us went to M1 heading to Nottingham. As we just passed the roundabout and coming down to M1, Andy blared the car, reaching to 6000rpm still in gear 4... hohohohoho **adrenaline rush** we went up to 140Mph..hahahahahha thats just over 200Kmph..and in a sport-tuned car..hahahahha shiit..I have to say... It felt nice. On the way back, Andy decided to just take it easy, practically cruising. And then, this saloon car decided to overtake us. As we were head to head with the car, Andy revved it up again...hahaha leaving the saloon car wayyy it was one helluva ride...

Then, it was back to work.. me and Sarv bailed out quite early, around 01:00 ish and i stayed at 82 sharply's and continued on the final report due the very next afternoon at 16:00. I dint sleep theoretically. Coffee was my main source of energy. No breakfast or whatsoever. The next morning, I went back to SM113, still wide awake and worked my ars*e on the report. It was 15:45 when we printed the report and found mistake here and there, made quick adjustments.. and it was 15:54 when its all done and handed it in at 15:56!!!! woohoooo...living on the edge..heheheheh

After report hand in, me and Mamun went to to get some food to eat. and pretty much thats the only real food I ate for the day as i went to bed around 18:00 and slept for a nice 15hrs...a well-earned sleep.. =P

Thats all for now folks~
peace
pek0

The Wednesday of the last week of Easter holids.

2008-04-09T11:10:00.000-07:00

Okayy, the title of this post is long. lol. Today, I went to the library, only to find it was full and there were no free computers. Was suppossed to start on my Aircraft Design coursework. start tah!!! hahaha I met Andy there and we chatted for a bit, catching up on things. There wasn't even the slightest idea to blog untill I got a text message from my coursemate asking how the Task 3 is going. Man, I haven't even looked at it yet. pek..oh..pekk.. mengapa kau?? Its due next Thursday lagi tuu!!!

So yeah, got a text from my mate asking about the coursework...and here I am..blogging. lol and here's what my desk looks like..

Cemana tah kan buat keraja tu..mija panuh ah..hahahahahaha anyways thats all for now folks!

till then,
peko

Back in Birmingham....again...i know.. lol

2008-04-02T19:08:00.000-07:00

As the title says...im back in Birmingham again..till when? who knows.. i still have 10 days of easter left to spend..well to be completly honest, I should spend it on doing my coursework..but alum tah jua tegarak2nyaa... astee~ hahaha
okay, thats all for now..
till then...

Forgiving??

2008-04-02T04:10:00.000-07:00

We are so busy thinking about our own bruises, our own scars,
We forget how to forgive. But..if we just take the time to peek..
into someone else's world, Even the unforgivable can be forgiven..

Randomness

2008-03-23T19:43:00.000-07:00

Hellooooooo~ Im baaaack..hahahaha what the heck.. Lots of stuff happened since the last post...and most of it are reflections and illusions of what life has to offer..apakan?? [ i dont even know what im talking about here..macam cool bunyinya..keke..] hmm... lets see.. Oh yea!!...RANDOM...thats what this post will be about..huhu

Randomness...They didnt call me random for no reason..eseh..(that btw is NOT true..hahahaha) But, honestly, i like being random It gives more fun in life.. Gedit? No? lol ok.. Have you experienced a situation when you planned something, for example a holiday vacation. You researched everything, made reservations, paid deposits ( in some case ) etc etc and.....in the end, you dont end up going? Something important came up, friends backed out, bla bla bla.. I bet we've experienced it all and truth be told, it sucks. Well, thats life, sometimes they dont go as planned. And thats where i come in!! hahah!!

Thurs (20th March '08) night was one of the many random moments written in the history of pekoh. Since morning rain was pouring, sun was covered by clouds, basically that day, di bumi Loughborough ini was freakin boring man!! Not to mention that it was soo windy to the point that nada mood even kan be sports..hahaha i was that bad i tell you. Later that night, I saw on Mallie's pvt msg saying that they ( the brummies a.k.a bibers ) have to be at 688 around 6:00 pm. Rupa2nya they all sambut maulud nabi arah rumah diurang. It was at around 9ish when i saw this and then tarustah ku text wani. Instead of replting my text, she called me instead..hahahahaha and we talked..and the conversation was sumthin like this i guess:

Wani: Bah kemari tah..

Pekoh: hmm bepikir plang niee..

Pekoh: aku banar2 kan kesana nii..

*wani then gives the phone to saifullah*

Saifullah: bah Pek, kemari tah..

Pekoh: banar?? bah!!! hahahahaha

Pekoh: im checking the train timetable now..

Pekoh: OK lah!! im taking the 21:45 train...arrive in Birm New St at 23:35

Wani: bah gtau2 saja mun sampai sudah..

Pekoh: oraitt...see you guys later..

* it was 21:08 when the phone call ended *

So, I rushed and packed my stuff (sedikit ganya lagi tu!! turun2 ayam wah aku ah..huhu) which consist of: My camera, 1 extra shirt and a long sleeved jacket only..So yeah..come on..the idea of going to Birm that night was out of pure randomness and boredom, what do you expect?? lmao

**Okay...its 3:30 am now and im stuck...not that i dont know what to write..its more of thinking whether i sould write the full story or short?? lol what the heck..im just gonna go for it...chayooo~ wohahahahah**

okay..where was I..so yeah, Sampai Birm, Saifullah and Huda was there to pick me up. huhuhuhu and diurang brought me straight to 688 pershore rd. There were a lot of the brummies a.k.a bibers still there. 688 per rd is like a hangout place i was told. heheh They are friendly berabisly..hahahaha..they offerred food to me which i was really thankful!!! man, aku alum makan ah..hahaha sampai birm baru kan makan..lol I remember makan bubur ubi manis ( i think ) and banoffee that wani made and apalagi ah...oh yea..lasagnea doni buat..kekeke they were all nyaman!!!! buwahahahahaha

Lapas makan makanan yg sangat nyaman lagi menyamankan...we cerita2 lah...and comes the quizzes/jokes time. Some are mind boggling berabis!! some are lame to the max!! but all are fun!!!! That I assure you!!<--- with a serious face hahahahaha...adatia pasal gorilla mati lah...samut matilah..huhuhu man, remembering those jokes...sakit parut jua ketawa..hahahahaha the mind boggling quizz...hahahahha was the worst part for me...my brain was sooooo slow in processing it..hahahah and was too analytical...well, thats me...im a complicated person, not a simple one i think. All that laughing and bullying ceased at around 04:00am when seorang2 ciao..and tidur..and all thats left was me, tony and c dayang huda. We all sambung ceritalah..about our common childhoods how we acted when we were little..like kana ambat pakai hangar baju, rutan...Hiding ourselves under the bed, in the wardrobe, blakang tabir etc etc..kekekeke man...Honestly, it shoots me back to my childhood years...hahahahaha and we even talked about RTB programmes and how much they have evolved..kudos to RTB!!!!!! :) From sunday matinnee to hercules...to roswell series and now to prison break..hahahahaha Cerita punya cerita..idung c huda bedarah...hahahaha pms kah? *kes nda paham* and then it snowed!!! :) but it was just 5 mins...and it was 07:30am. Huhuhuu.. at 08:00 me and tony antar c dayang huda balik to her house..lepak sana skajap and then went back to 688. Made coffee and played GH3 and DDR..hahahaha aku aun ikut2an ah..huhuhu and around 10 ish, tony decided to tidurr...hahahaha and i was left alone...apalagi..ku kerajakan DDR and GH3!!!!!!!! woahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahaah I ROCK THE HOUSE MAN!!!!!!!!!!!! LMAO.

It was Friday and as on every friday...we all had to go for the Friday prayer..huhuhu and this time.. Sembahyang Jumaat in the Birmingham Central Mosque (BCM)!!!!!!!!! woahahahaahah a proper Mosque.... "^_^! v After that me and mustaq and some other bibers ke city. I dont know anything so ikut je laa...[ its like what they say.."in Rome, do what the Romans do" and "in Birm, do what the Bibers do!!" ] They were ngurusin ticket ke London and then makan lunch at urban feast.. then Saifullah came and we go shopping for stuff to buy..cos they all were planning to have a makan2 at 688..teehee...so banyak lah kami beli belah..wohahahahaha ayam, ikan, avocado..wasabi..asam jawa?? huhuhuhu.

(loooong paaaaauseeeeeee.....hahahaha, seriously... the draft was last saved on 23rd March and Today's 2nd April and its around 1:02am.. and now I continue my post..hoping that the story of last week is still in my head)

That night, Huda A made sushi man...and her sushi are awesome..wohahahaha kanyang makan sushi... and Azrul made Ovenated-Ayam..[i think] hehehe its a bit blurry now.. erkss... and yeaa... KAYUN buat sambal bebeh!!!!!!!!!! and i mean SAMBAL!!!!!!!!!! aaaah~ drools~ kekekee... Ni naaaah Azrul's ovenated-chicken..hehehe nyaman ah...sunggung nyaman sehingga menjhilaht jarheeee.... We all ate it with Mallie's rice and Kayun's sambal!

Pic:
Top Left: Huda's sushi
Mid Left: Sambal Kayun
Bott left: Mallie's nasi
Right: Ovenated-chicken of Azrul.. ^_^

So yeah..those were the highlights of my weekend in Birmingham, at Azrul, Mus, Tony, Mallie and Doni's house. They were great hosts...they still are :) I definitely went back to lboro with a satisfactory smile across my face. That was one helluva weekend.

That's all for now~
^_^

The weekend

2008-03-10T13:43:00.000-07:00

*burp* Alhamdulillah, just finished eating dinner which was jacket potatoes with tuna-mayo and beans fillings. nyum2. Today was not my day. Skipped 3hrs of lecture in the morning ( Mechanical vibrations and composites structures) and another two in the afternoon..( Flight Control Systems and composites tutorial) and now..im regretting it...a little..lol. I was so tired that even a Mocha with 4 packets of brown sugar didnt help me at all..macam..ngalih jua ku sudah tuu..wahahaha I can say its all because of the hectic-but-fun weekend~

The weekend: I went to Birmingham to watch the annual Yonex All England Open held at the National Indoor Arena (NIA) on Friday the 7th. It was the quarter final matches. At first I didnt have the ticket for it..but, with Shazwani's help, I got it!! Thanks a lot wani!! the match started at 17:30 hrs and finishes at 22:30 hrs. Thats 5 hrs long!! sitting on your butt for 5 straight hours can be tiring..lol. But whats important is that it is all worth it!! Saw the match between Taufik Hidayat (indonesia) and Lee Chung Wei (malaysia). The 1st game, Taufik was on the lead with 20-16 but as his opponet is Lee Chung Wei, the 2nd seed, Taufik H lost 21-23 in the first game. That was one intense match, full of smashes, nearly-impossible crosscourt backhand and many more. The match between Taufik H and Chung Wei L was won by Chung Wei L. They were lots of other interesting matches like Lin Dan's, Nathan and Gail's and many more.

After the All England Open, Me, saifullah, shuhir, najib, mustaqim, mallie, hanis a.k.a manis balikk...den hangout arah rumah diurang c Azrul.. makan nasi lamak..[ Nasi, ayam-ber-order and sambal kak yun!!!! ] fuhh..ngam2 lapar wah.. hahaha then, keluar tia DDR and the standing champion saifullah.. Damn.. indaku tau c saipol wah champion DDR di birm!! hahahahaI crashed at Wani's place sal dey all are going to Leics for the Bruleics Games '08 the next morning and im going aswell. Yatah kan bebayalah kirakann..The stupid thing was.. I slept at 6 am in the morning and woke up at 8 am!! Two hours of sleep ganya..huhu we took the 10:24 train to Leicester and arrived in Leics around..11:15 kali.

The Bruleics Games is another annual event organised by the Bruneian-Leicsterians.. Its a sports event consisting of Football and Netball. Wheee~ sports event..its time to put my new Nikon D70s (DSLR camera) to use.. and it took great pics :):) posted the pics up in my flickr account http://flickr.com/people/24587523@N08/ Congratulations to both Lufbru's Football and Netball teams for winning medals!! Football: 3rd place and the Netballers: 1st place!!!!! woohoooo~ sadly, i wasnt there to take pics of the prize giving ceremony as me, afnan and ain were on our way to London to attend the Brunei Night organised by the Imperial College London's students.

My ticket for the ICUBS Brunei Night was sponsored by my very own brother, Along..(thanks long) hahahaha I practically forced him to buy it for me..lol.. The Brunei Night's theme was "The Curse Of The Pulut Panggang" and it was FUN!! I actually enjoyed it very much. Performances included comedy drama which relates to Bruneian lifestyle and astonishing dances. And oh..Afnan's sister, Qeenah, performed. Thats why he went to Brunei Night..kana pajal jua..lol

*scroll punya scroll....panjang jua aku tulis ani...erkss jarang wah aku tulis ini panjang...hahahah*

So..cutting things short.. went back to Loughborough on sunday afternoon and arrived around 3:40..went straight back to my crib..simpan barang..ambil my nadminton gear..and off to 2hrs of badminton!!! baru balik pun tarus main wahh..huhuhuhu the session was pretty hardcore..lol..semangat All England lah katakan.. That's all for now I guess.. something came up..yatah I have to cut it short..

What the heck??

2008-03-09T17:22:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum and Hello to all! =)

This is my first ever post and its my first time blogging. The reason?? I've recently bought a Used-but-very-reliable Nikon D70s and have taken thousands (literally 1000++ pics within 4 days!) hahahaha so yeah here I am blogging. I have just created a flickr account too..a few mins ago..lol.. anyway, I know this is pretty short for my first post, but that'll be it for now I guess.

(^_^)